Happy Mother's Day!

When I was in eighth grade, I wrote a song for my mom. It was one of my first songs that I wrote that had music and lyrics in it. The song that’s playing right now (if you pressed play at the top), has excerpts from the first version of that song. I still really like the lyrics that I wrote so long ago because they describe how I feel about my mother to this day.

The chorus says this:

“‘Cause she was the one that tucked me in at night.
Lucky me, I don’t have to fright.
Because she was there. I don’t have to worry.

And now I know why I am here.
Yeah, she teaches me, the strangest things,
Like, how to clean, and what life brings.”

As I think about these lyrics and what they mean to me, I can’t help but think about how often she still “tucks me in.” I go to her when I am anxious. I ask her for girl advice. I call her just to talk. She is always there ready to tuck me in when I need it.

I remember a day when I lived in Texas when one night, my mother didn’t tuck me in. I remember feeling really sad inside, not liking this feeling of getting “too old” to be tucked in. She noticed I was sad and asked me what was up. I told her how I felt. I told her that I never will be too old to be tucked in and that I don’t ever want to leave home. Though I really have grown up, I am still grateful for all the times my mom has been there in my life, “tucking me in.”

I respect my mom. She has good ideas. She knows how to tell me how it is. She knows me better than I feel I know myself at times. I love her and I am grateful for her teaching me how to clean and what life brings. Though these are strange things, they certainly have helped me in my life.

Thank you mom, for all that you do. It may not seem that I notice all the things you do, which is probably true, but the things that I do notice, I love. Happy Mother’s Day.

Song: "She Was the One That Tucked Me In" composed by Christopher Froelich

Creativity is something special to me.

^ (Please press play while reading the entry for full effect. I wrote a piano piece to describe how I felt while writing this blog. I hope that it will really help you to feel and get a sense of me and to how I was feeling at the time. Hope you enjoy it!)
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I recently arrived home from California. I went with three friends. One of my friends was in search for a new place to live because he was going to be working in San Francisco and so I offered to come along. I am glad I did. It seems that when I get away for a little, my life organizes itself a little more. I start to see things in a different way. That is exactly what happened during this trip.

We slept at my friend Shelby’s cousin’s place in San Francisco. It was small, but it seemed to give off a sort of confident feeling. I felt like I could become someone in that home. Shelby’s cousin is only about thirty years old and he owns a business that is doing very well. I asked him what I could do in order to be successful. He said to pick something that you are good at and that you slightly enjoy and become the best at that. I am now trying to find exactly what that is. I feel this advice is exactly what I need to help me in the phase of life that I am in.

I explored San Francisco. I saw what it is like to be extremely well off. I saw people and places that are successful. We went to Google’s campus and rode on their bikes. It was a neat experience but it made me wonder what it is that Google has done so well to get to be as big as it is. I saw opportunities stationed in this campus. Somehow, Google has created an environment that breathes success. I want to create this same environment for myself.

This entry is a little bit all over the place, but that is the mood that I feel right now. I got home from California at 4 am and had to go to clean a dentist office for my friend before the office opened. I went home and had two hours of sleep and then went to class. Though I am all over the place, I feel a sense of dignity and openness that I haven’t recently felt.

I am taking a class called visual literacy. Today we focused a lot on what creativity actually is. I felt like I had a lot to say about this subject. Being creative is all about the process in which I do things. I can do anything creatively. This one class made me think. It made me want to be a more creative person. I think that by using creativity in my life, I will be able to find out what I do well at and to become the best at it. I think about all the creative minds in California and what they did to get to where they are today. I am sorry this has been all over the place, but I hope you enjoy some of my thoughts. Bottom-line, I had an amazing experience in California and I appreciate creativity.

I think it can be creative to be random.

Song: Random Flowing Thoughts by Christopher Froelich